Wow. It seems like a whole semester has passed since the last time I blogged and I haven’t even started school! I’ve been busy working away at training to be an RA this year at Chapman. I never thought that this would be in the plan for my life and I almost didn’t apply last semester because I knew there was just no way I would get the job. When I did, I almost declined three times because of fear of being inadequate to fulfill all the duties.
As I prayed about this opportunity, God showed me this is exactly where He wants me. I have a circle of comfort and sense of control and he planted me right outside of it so that I would be dependent on Him. We weren’t designed to do life by ourselves and have everything under our control. That’s why we have God. And that’s why He wanted me to be an RA. I know that the only way I can make it through this year is with Him strapped right to my side, and this is the comfort that allowed me to confidently take on this role.
I had no idea how much I would learn about other people and myself through the two weeks of intensive training. Besides the thrill of learning how to use a fire extinguisher and perform CPR, I was able to explore topics I had never really given much thought to, like diversity, micro-agressions, mental illness and identity.
One of the biggest things I will take away from this whole experience however, is the love that was demonstrated by everyone on the student staff. I wasn’t expecting everyone (and I mean everyone) to be so genuine and truly care about me as a person, and not for anything that I can do or for things I have accomplished in the past. To hear people say they believe in me and were proud of me, filled every fiber of my being with joy and confidence and left a lingering hope inside me that I haven’t felt in a long time.
I am so humbled to have the opportunity to work along side these remarkable individuals this year and be able to go through life with them. They’ve taught me what true friendship looks like.